II. Loathe: Denial

You wasted your time with me,
but all I did was use you,
you were nothing but a pawn,
you played your part now we can, move on,

I’d thank you for helping me out of this mess,
but I know that wouldn’t ever make you mean less,
and I’d rather not sit here and lie,
so I’ll just be honest, You were always useless,

Always hit or miss,
I constructed false favoritism,
I built this lying love,
all to dig myself from this hole,
and it’s separated you and I,
and I wouldn’t have it any other way,
can’t create confidence for you,
I won’t create anything for you…

When I let you in, when I opened up,
the last thing I expected, was to say goodbye,
you put me through hell,
I barely deserved it,
I shouldn’t have expected more,
you were always a mess, lost in distress,
you always did this to yourself,
I picked up on all of it, ‘till it came to me,
I thought I needed you, I thought I could offer you.

a sanctuary,
a place to hide your mislead mastery, of oversight,
but all I was, was a place to, rest your head,
when all the others placed their bets on when you’d falter this time,
I held you up way too high,
you never really stood a chance,
but I was blinded by the sun spewing rays of light

past your eyes,
straight into mine,
you said you didnt want to become worthless,
but you created the word, you built your own demise,
you taught me a thing or two about lust,

as I thought I was teaching you how to trust,
but all you did is rip this hope from my eyes,
and bury it deep behind yours,
when you told me you would hate whoever came next,
did you realize that you were selfish yet,
when you told me you would hate whoever came next,
did you realize that you were selfish yet,

or were you lying through your teeth,
just to help me move on from what we,
both knew we, never really had,

but I’ll be alright, looking back I now know I used you too,
I could never love you anyway,
and I hope that fact hurts once you let it sink in,

You were two faced,
when you told me,
that you would hate,
whoever came next,
did you realize,
that you were selfish yet,

you hold heavy horrors,
behind your puckered lips,
ready to spew out demons,
on every man you kiss,

I wasted my time with you,
but all you did was use me,
I was nothing but a pawn,
I played my part, now we can move on,

you’d thank me for helping you out of this mess,
but you know nothing would ever make me mean less,
and you’d rather not sit here and lie,
so just be honest, I was always.